The test

The Test

Well some of you may know that today was a big day for Eddie.  It was a test that was for all to marbles so to say.  If I passed the test then I kept my job and could move forward.  If I failed the test I would be unemployed and starting all over.  It was a pretty big risk in my eyes.  I felt a lot of anxiety going into it.  I had help from loved ones that I looked over.  I had plenty of time to study and was able to know the material very well.  But I also learned a lot of lessons though this test about myself and also about my relationships with this planet. 

The test was something that was harder in my mind then it actually was.  I built it up to be this big thing that if I failed life would end.  I was wrong on that point.  I felt if I failed my girl would leave me I would be homeless.  But as most of you know the things we worry about mostly never come true.  God gave us this amazing imagination and I used it to imagine all the ways that things could go wrong.  I had drawn up all kinds of ways that things could go wrong.  I have done this a lot in my life with just about everything.  I find the reasons to say no in life not to say yes.  Find the reasons to fail not the reasons why I am going to win.  I know that I am not alone in this.  I have an amazing imagination and pointed in the right direction could help me create an amazing life.  If the visions and imagination were pointed to the positive then more positive would happen. 

I have learned more than just insurance from this test.  I have learned about faith.  When I say that word most think of religion.  Yes that can be a source of your faith but that is not the type of faith I am talking about.  Faith is defined at the evidence of things unseen things hoped for.  Most people think of faith as a positive thing and that is always pointed toward good things.  But it isn’t.  Faith can also be given to the negative side of life and faith will still be the evidence of things unseen but for a negative purpose.   Faith can give us the negative along with the positive that all depends on us and our focus.  If we focus on the negative then we will receive it in return.

“A negative mind and never produce a positive life.”

Dalia lama

So we must train our minds to lean to the positive in life.  To look for things that can go right not things that can go wrong.  When a situation happens in life look at how the universe is helping us not hurting us.